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the awkwardness of unemployment

So today is the 22nd day of not working.
So weird. It is hard keeping track of time.
I actually feel more stressed in some ways because I don't feel useful and only dwell on what is not getting done. The lack of a paycheck makes me nervous, too.

I do enjoy the freedom of being able to visit friends during normal hours.
There is still not a ton of free time because every spare minute is focused on planning for nyc.

Josh is napping upstairs. He has been for about 2 hours. I am on his laptop. I'm supposed to be finding more options for housing... instead I am looking at Tori tix and surfing lj. Oh well. I'll get back to the madness in a bit.

He starts work on Monday. Tomorrow he heads over to his friend's house in NY, where he will be staying until we find an apt.
Tonight I am going out for dinner with him and his family and tomorrow the two of us are going out for breakfast before he leaves. I think I've figured out a major factor of my weight gain (in addition to dropping the pill, bleeding for a month or so [yeah, that's still happening], stressing out, and not working...) -- eating at restaurants WAY too often lately.

My mom put my dad and sister on the South Beach diet. My dad has lost 11lbs or so. I think my sister got annoyed by the whole thing and I think she dropped it. She is pretty good at dieting her own way if she wants to anyway. I am a bit tempted to try it for a couple of weeks just to drop the 5 or 6 lbs but I am a bit worried that I'll just gain it back because I eat carb-tasticly (yes, it is a word because I declare that it is).
Or, you know, I could get off my lazy ass and finally get some exercise. I would probably feel a million times better.

Okay, I think it's about time I wake the Josh.
This was supposed to be our nice little day together before he leaves for NY and he already has plans for this evening with his friends.
It's alright, I've enjoyed having some time to myself anyway.


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Jun. 11th, 2005 11:49 pm (UTC)
I know exactly what you are talking about with the whole unemployed thing. I hope things go as smoothly as is possible honey. I can't even begin to imagine what ur facing. if you ever want to talk to someone impartial im here, if that makes any sense.....im so serious, if you want my contact info email me at hooshy69@yahoo.com
I have free long distance a good ear and a shitload of free time:o)
Jun. 12th, 2005 12:51 am (UTC)
thanx :)

btw, i like that icon! i'm so spacey that i just caught myself staring at it for a few mins. lol
Jun. 12th, 2005 12:56 am (UTC)
also, I the same goes for you. if you ever need an ear, i'll be around. Sending you an e-mail...
Jun. 12th, 2005 01:19 am (UTC)
you should embrace this time that you have with yourself. Spend time outdoors doing neat things, gardening or just listening to the wind and the birds. Do things that you never had time to do before, pick up a hobby or a sport. Maybe even join a team! You should be really excited. Don't let your self sit around though, it can be depressing. Take care, honey!
Jun. 12th, 2005 01:39 am (UTC)
I am just realizing this today. I've just been in such a panic mode over all this change that I overlooked the freedom that I have right now.
Thank you for a reminder of what should have been so obvious to me. Funny how sometimes we need someone else's word to feel liberated. :)
Jun. 12th, 2005 02:10 am (UTC)
I'm on the South Beach diet. It's not nearly as strict as the Atkins diet which I've been on, too. You are less likely to gain the weight back on the South Beach diet. It works. It's hard to do, though, if you are a vegetarian. I know you eat fish, though, right, and some chicken?

Anyway, yeah. The Atkins diet works too, but it's really strict.

Jun. 12th, 2005 12:10 pm (UTC)
Yeah, I was wondering if I would be able to swing it given my usual carb to protein ratio. I knew that Atkins would be completely out for me. I would give up pretty quickly and gain back the weight (or more) just as fast. But yes, I don't mind having fish and chicken and I could deal with having it a bit more often than usual for a little while. I'm going to browse through my mom's book and check out the details.
Anyway, good to hear from someone else who has tried it.
Josh's whole family went on it last year and lost a ton of weight. His mom actually looks like a different person (in a good way). I generally steer away from fad diets, but other than stage one, this one is fairly similar to how I eat anyway and makes a lot more sense than most. Having some guidelines in place will just help a bunch.
Jun. 12th, 2005 12:13 pm (UTC)
What I still find to be funny is that Josh lost over 20 lbs from living with me (since I stocked the kitchen and did the cooking), while I gained 6 or 7 lbs. Lol. Oh well.
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